Knowing When to Hold 'Em and Knowing When to Fold 'Em

As with life, so too is a poker game.
A fear of losing, often dictates how many hands you play.
Playing Aces is always a safe bet, but doesn't offer up any miracles.
Having the short stack, dictates how many risks you can take.
Going all in.  Surrendering to the Universe
Blinds are to keep the pressure on to keep taking chances
Paying to see the cards - Not trusting you intuition
Folding - Trusting your intuition
Vulnerable position - Aggressive players on all sides
Bluffing-faking it till you make it.

Today and Going Forward

There are no words to describe this day.

Keep on Keepin' on


Talk to you tomorrow.

Donnawanna

Who am I

Who am I?

I'm not sure.

More curious, Where am I?

Being lost may be the only way of finding out where I am.

Talk to you tomorrow.

Donnawanna

Purpose.

Here's the thing.

The animals know it.
the plants know it.
the planets know it.
the earth knows it.

how come we don't know it.
How come we have to fuck around forever trying to find our place,
To find our purpose.

how come that?

Talk to you tomorrow

Donnawanna

Surviving the Mercury Retrograde

So who of us, are still complacent.  Who of us, has not been inspired enough to make changes to our lives. 

Lines in the sand have been breached.
Boundaries have been crossed.
Fuck you speeches danced in your head.
Reflections of ourselves in the Mirror.
Reflections of ourselves in our closest relationships.
Internal navigating through rough waters.
Great debates with heart and mind.
Fuck you speeches came up and out.
On your knees, begging for Mercy
Praying to God.
Baby Steps.
Giant Leaps.
Hearts being followed.
Strength being renewed.
Communication being restored.
Fears being overcome.
Truths being told.
Trust.

As the Earth continues to shift and undo the strongest structures,
the most steadfast mindsets and old karma are shifting with the Planets.
You're closer now than you have ever been.
And if you could see our progress in perceptual form.
Baggage left on the doorstep.

Global Healing.

Talk to you tomorrow.

Donnawanna

The Storm is Passing

It was as if the Sistine Chapel was painted on the sky.  Last night's light show, lit up the sky and I was in awe of both the spectacular beauty and the colossal power that it had demonstrated.  Certainly, we are humbled by this great display of might.

Perhaps a celebration of sorts, of Mercury set to go forward, finally and in recognition of the stunning beauty that eludes us in our darkest times, and the power that is within each one of us to make positive change.

Mercury will move forward, and we will all be able to move forward along side.   While we watched things fall apart,
we have done our soul searching, and questioned our own beliefs, we have waited patiently, (or maybe not so patiently) for things to move. 

We have been shaken up, We have said our goodbyes, we have looked into the mirror a thousand times trying to get a glimpse of the deepest part of us,

we have come to peace with our circumstances and Who We Are.  With Mercury's forward motion, now is the time we get to see, how things can fall together. 

There is Global Healing of the grandest scale.  This morning it may look as if everything is back to normal and it is the same day as yesterday.  I promise you though.  It is not.  Change is here.



Talk to you tomorrow.

Donnawanna

Attitude Adjustment

A Shift in Attitude is eminent.  Time to switch it up.  Happy Happy.


We'll see it that changes things.

Talk to you tomorrow

Donnawanna

School Daze.

It is the kind of morning, that tells you that summer is ending, and fall will begin.  The scenery changes, yet again.  The air is cool and a new energy emerges for the oncoming change.  It is the first sign of "new" after a summer of hard change.  New buster brown shoes.  New, little outfits and bright white shoes.  New school bags and school suupplies lined up in a row, new friends, new promises to yourself and new goals. The fall brings a readiness for a brand new school year and, anticipated change.

It's all brand new.

 As the summer moves on we are all the wiser, having spent most of our time, wrestlling with our hearts and our minds and we are all hopeful now, that we have brought heart and mind together. 
New Chapters.  New Stories.  A new way home.

Step bravely into this new season, with lessons learned and be proud.

School is never really out.

Talk to you tomorrow.

Donnawanna

Crop Circles in the School Yard

I woke up this morning to what seemed like crop circles in the School yard.
Circles of numerous layers, random designs and paths that seemed to lead to an unknown destination.  What seemed as an afterthough, a flag stood in the middle of the crop circle.
Was it some alien ship that had landed, in the middle of the night. Were they responding in kind, to the flag left on the moon. which were not unlike, I suppose,  the images Nasa had left behind on the moon?
 Certainly, these tracks must have been equally as mystical perhaps to those indiginous to the Moon.
 Traces of Giant leaps and Lunar Module footprints in the dirt. And what about the golf balls?  What can you make of those?  
Aliens with a message?   Or was somebody, somewhere living the Dream. With their brand new John Deere Tractor.

Wait for clarity.  It's coming.

Talk to you tomorrow.

Donnawanna

Love and Absence

Taurus Moon

We are hungry.

In the Mood Ring Scheme of things.  A White Moon.  Wolves.  It would not be totally unreasonable, to find yourself howling at the Moon.

Through the twists and turns,  you sometimes have to take a road that you didn't plan for.  Feel your way through, with your heart, and pick the road that will take you far.

Talk to you tomorrow.

Donnawanna

As it Should: The Sun Always Rises

I suppose it is no surprise, that the Sun is yet again, rising from the East.  It is likely too, that it will not quit at the halfway point, it will absolutely make the sunset on time.  As it should.
I suppose, we all have our destinations, on where we should go, where we are going, and how we are going to get there.  I suspect too, that we all have to endure a certain amount of heat. 
I guess with enough fire in your belly, you can get anywhere. 
There is always a time, you will find yourself having run out of road and at the edge of a cliff, and your best idea, is to jump.
Who knows if someone will be there to catch you.  You only know, that taking that jump, compels you to trust with all of your heart, trusting, that it will be, all ok.
Courage is a formidible thing.  Liberation, a sweet reward. And committment,  is born out of Love.
Loving who we are, rather than chasing the love, that we think we need.
The Sun always rises.

Talk to you tomorrow.

Donnawanna

A View from Inside the Rabbit Hole

Well it seems this Aquarius Full Moon has me back again, at my not so beloved rabbit hole, the very same one I thought had completely vanished.  I thought for sure that I had "licked" it. Apparently not though, Clearly, it was just buried.  That's the trouble with the soul.  It does not allow anything to remain buried.
 
As I stand before the proverbial rabbit hole, yet again, I am vibrating with fear.  It would be compelling enough, if you met up with the Mad Hatter or got a peek at the Queen of Hearts, asked a few questions to the cheshire cat or even got a glimpse of what you were chasing after.  But it's not like that.  Not like that at all.  It is the most dark and empty place on this Earth.  It is a solitary pursuit. It is a relentless chase, after something that was never yours, never meant to be yours nor probably, ever going to be yours.  There are no clues, no big red arrows pointing the way, no close calls that would allow you to believe that you saw something down there, but more certainly, there are no victory parties where you get to claim your prize.

It is nothing more, than a rabbit hole.  A lost cause.  I don't even think there are rabbits down there.

If I was to say that this would be the last, last time, that I venture down the rabbit hole, in the hopes that it would be different this time, would be a huge mistake.  It's never different.  It's always the same. The 801th time, would be likely the time, that I would wallow and sink and find myself lost forever. 
So what do you do, after you say "Not Today"?  Do you get angry and tear the shit out of everything and everybody who dares get in your way?  Do you crawl in a different hole, isolate yourself from everyone and pretend you enjoy your own company.  Do you vow that you will never, ever let yourself become so vulnerable again, never wanting for anything, for anybody.

Or do you wake the Fuck Up!!!

We'll see.

Talk to you tomorrow.

Donnawanna

An Idiots Manual to "Interpreting the Signs"

Wouldn't it be nice if you could look up to the sky, and see that the clouds are all going west, oddly enough, at the very exact time that they were going west, you were thinking of Arizona.

Is that a clear "sign" that Arizona would be in the stars for you?
Would that be a considered a coincidence or a "sign", or would it be more likely classified as a misinterpretation of the "signs".

Looking outside my window, the clouds are piled up along the horizon line, like a west coast mountain range. Clear blue Skies above them, and if I looked hard enough, I'm sure I'd find a deer and an antelope playing. Having found that, I'm sure there would be a buffalo roaming around somewhere up there.

You see, that's the kind of "sign" I'm looking for.

Here's what I'm thinking.

"When looking for "signs", be as sketchy or abstract as you can. That way you can interpret the "signs", anyway you want to. Ultimately, if Arizona is absolutely, where you need to be, than that's where you should be.

As I see it, That's a clear "sign" that you don't need a "sign".
 
Talk to you tomorrow.
 
Donnawanna

An Idiots Manual to "Learning the Signs"

Last night was an amazing lightning storm.  Like fires in the sky.  I stood on the balcony and tried to photograph the magnitude of this colossal force with my iphone.  No good picture came of it.
It may be some time before I learn how to "capture" the signs.  The idiot's guide to the iphone perhaps.
Looking at it from here though, was pretty cool. 
The sky was like a discothèque, as the lightning danced between the skyline, and the CN Tower was lit up like some giant neon erection, that would never make its move.
Was I witness to a good sign or was it a bad sign.
Considering they were having a party on a Tuesday night and I am up standing on the balcony in my underpants at 3:00 in the morning and had to get up for work very shortly.  It seemed playful enough.
It wasn't like the neighbours were keeping me up.  And that's always a good sign.
Thinking about what message I was getting from the sky last night, 
I would say that:

"sometimes you have to have fun, no matter what the cost."

I can always sleep tomorrow.  Today I got to see a riveting sky.
And I think that is a good sign.

Talk to you tomorrow.
Donnawanna

-An Idiots Manual to "Learning the Signs"

Along the highway are a thousand billboards, selling most anything. 
In some places, these billboards are lit up like a small strip of Vegas.
Others more techno-savvy, are capable of multiple messages and some, are just
plain and simply trying to get your business without a lot of whistles and bells.
Each sign though, telling us, what is better for us.
Interesting though, I came across a billboard about washing machines.
Plain enough sign, at first glance, having a second look though, I had to slow down enough to read the message that it was still writing in white lights.

"Destiny is not a Matter of Chance.
Destiny is a Matter of Choice."

I have always had so much trouble deciphering the subtleties of "Signs from the Universe", this one seemed specific enough for me, without having it Klunk me on the head. 
It is my relentless pursuit for answers, that I find myself here tonight with you all.
My project is to journal here the "signs" I get from this Great Earth.  Klunks, or of the more subtle variety.
Liken it if you will, to the tear away message of the day calendar.

My washing machine billboard will be my first "sign" and the message for today.

Today, I am choosing my destiny.  And if it isn't me choosing it entirely, it will be Mars pushing the shit out of me, to walk the talk.

"The best time to plant a tree is 20 years ago.
The second best time is today."  (Chinese Proverb)

Talk to you all tomorrow.

Donnawanna